Seattle

Just wanted to write a quick blog about my weekend. This past weekend I made a trip up to Seattle to see my friends. The first time I had been there in about five years. I lived there many years ago when I was in college before I moved to San Francisco. I posted a pic of me and my best girlfriend Sarah. We both were laughing looking at it saying how much we both have changed since we first met eight years ago working at the Marriott in Seattle. But we have stayed close friends all these years. Of course the weather in Seattle was absolutely miserable. It was cold and pouring rain the entire weekend. Reminded me of why I disliked the winters in Seattle so much when I lived there. Even though I miss some of my friends, I don't miss the city itself.

I would have never imagined when I left Seattle for San Francisco seven years ago that this is where life would lead me. Life is full of surprises. Also makes me wonder what the next chapter of my life holds. When I first started in the porn industry , I envisioned that once my time of being on camera was over that I would still behind the scenes in some capacity. But now I see that it's not at all what I want or what I think is best for me. I will admit that overall porn has been a pretty big disappointment and many of the stereotypes of most porn stars actually stand true.

After my last entry in response to that blog written about Dominik Ryder and myself, I realized something. How much I miss my privacy and how different life was before porn. When you are in the public eye you open yourself to criticism and you learn to take it with a grain of salt. But after a while you get tired of it all and you want you privacy back. The reality is the curtain is going to be closing soon on my days of being on camera. I am not jumping ship just yet as one might say but it's definitely been on my mind alot lately.